Before I begin know that this is strictly my opinions and thoughts. A lot of people say 2020 sucks, though there are aspects that I am not a fan of, there is a lot of things as that I am thankful for. The birth of my son, health, and happiness. I also am saddened that as I write this in the car on my tablet my 6 month old son is on his way with us to meet his grandparents (one set anyways!) for the 1st time, AT 6 MONTHS OLD! (Mind you this is also being published a bit later since I tend to write blogs a bit in advance!) But safety first when dealing with covid and the health of our older family members. We just cannot take that risk for them OR for Vincent (Myself too I guess since I am asthmatic too)

I am bummed that I am unable to go Into my son’s doctor’s appointments. Part of this is because our doctor is French and I just do not have the skills that are needed to understand or ask the questions I would like to. My boyfriend is bilingual so it just makes sense that he goes in. I do get to write questions down though and he asks the doctor which is great. And I do go in the car and just wait outside for them to be done. Honestly it is the least I can do really. But to not have been to any of his vaccines either which is a bummer too, as a new mom I feel like I should be there for the cuddles and wiping of tears. I feel like I am missing these important moments but am relieved that my significant other has taken so much time off of work to go to these things with me.

Another thing that I am grateful that here my boyfriend was able to take 9 months paternity to be home. I think if he was back to work with his type of work and being around people it would have been more stressful. I think him being able to get our grocery and errands (I am at risk with having asthma) that if the rules were reversed and I had to do these things with the baby I would be not in a good place mentally. I don’t think with baby number 2 he will take the full 9 months off maybe 5 or so but still the welcomed help is always appreciated!

I think it sucks that Quebec was a bit rough on their precautions in the beginning as in they took a while to put rules in place. Now you must wear a mask in all public spaces that are indoors. Or certain arrows in grocery store show directions also. I think in the big scheme of things I am a bit saddened that we aren’t in the “Atlantic Bubbles” where the Atlantic provinces are able to freely come and go so my mom or dad aren’t able to come over to meet their littlest grandson. However my mom has said when flying is allowed or not as frowned upon she said she would be flying over since she does have the air miles! Which is something to look forward to also.

One thing I would never want to do is wish time away. Time is one of the most precious things that we can give to someone or have for ourselves. However, I cannot wait til we move back to Nova Scotia. I am excited for us to buy a new forever house and have our own space that we can paint and decorate as much or whatever way we wanted to do. My hope is that covid has not made this delayed anymore the it needed to be. I just want to have our space basically again.

I think the hardest thing is the virus is preventing us from showing off our son to people. Call it selfish or conceited but who wouldn’t want to show off their child to their friends and family, I hope that this covid stuff is pretty cleared up soon so we can prep for a return back home, (Did I mention how excited we are to be going back home!).

I also will say going out in public is something I was super nervous about. Since March actually I never went into a place til about June. And for this it was an eye appointment. Wearing a mask was super odd but it wasn’t bad. Then recently I went to do a little retail therapy to the dollarstore. My boyfriend said it was the best 250.00 he spent. It was so surreal going with arrows on the floor and also following the social distancing but I had went early in the morning so it was super easy anyways. Even before Covid I tend to go do things as soon as they open) Depending on the store of course or day of the week) So that the least amount of people are around. Interesting enough the people not following the rules are older folks who are typically more at risk. They kind of just walk all willy nilly and go where ever they want to.

I don’t think overall that covid really impacted us in a sense though. My partner and I are very much home bodies so for us to stay home is not a major stretch from reality. And though us being I the same space for days and days is a lot to deal with I think we are doing good if we haven’t killed one another yet hahaha. It just is a bummer that the things I took for granted like going to the pharmacy for tampons, corner store for chocolate, dollarstore for art supplies, I am not really able to do as much but things seem to be settling down which is a good thing of course though.

People think that this is a new normal, maybe for now but I think once a vaccine is produced or we eradicate the virus we will be back to normal life. And if anything, it taught us to stay the hell away from others!

-StaySee xo