I need to be held accountable. Simple as that.

I have decided to do so, I will be bringing you along the weight loss journey. We recently have gotten AMAZING News about moving back to my home province so that means weight loss before baby number 2. And I mean I have to hammer down NOW! I will be writing blogs every other Wednesday til about June or so when we move. Every 2 weeks I will update (with pictures!!)

Three criteria: Days I smoked weed, Days I exercised, and Days under calories (Max 1500). Along with triumphs and struggles, and updated side and front photos too. Normally I pick subjects and write about them and if they become relevant schedule them or write about a current subject as it pops up. Not this time. Chances are you are reading this blog and it was written last night. I will have photos of calendars that I will be filling out to see things easier and an overview of how I am doing. I wont be typing up what exactly I eat in a day as I do not have the time to do that but this will be a good overview for all you visual readers! Simple “X” Day’s mean that I failed at the calendar’s goals. While if I pass I will briefly fill it in. If I am under my calories I will Highlight it with a marker, if I don’t smoke weed it will be colored in, and if I exercise I will briefly write it in ie: Elliptical 40 mins, Exercise DVD, etc. and I will write a reflection on each calendar and then a brief spot after for my struggles and victories of the week!

If you are someone who is familiar with my blogs you know that I struggle with weight loss, I have most of my life and recently wrote about it too, You can read that blog here.

My low goal is to lose 30lbs before we move. Which is no over-reaching. If I lose anywhere from 30-50lbs that would be a major bonus for me. My starting weight is 242.4lbs. I know. I feel like a whale and need to take control of myself again. The goal before baby number 2 is cooking in there is under 210lbs. It is totally doable I just need to hammer down and stop eating my feelings, good and bad.

These are my before photos. I am unhappy. I hate how I look. And I am ready to be healthy once and for all. My current weight in these photos (Taken on Friday, January 15th, 2021) 242.4lbs. I feel like even if I was to drop below 210lbs that would be a huge accomplishment for me.
Measurements are:
Waist -47.0 Inches
Hips- 54.0 Inches
Bust – Over – 46.0 Inches
– Under – 39.5 Inches
Thighs – Left – 30.5 Inches
-Right – 30.0 Inches
Arms – Left – 13.5 Inches
– Right – 14.5 Inches

I always do measurements only because I know sometimes I haven’t lost really any pounds and I have lost inches and that is a little extra motivator!

Exercise Log

Obviously I need to majorly up this. However I find that I struggle if my son doesn’t sleep very well during the day. That being said my next goal for the following 2 weeks is to workout 8 days out of 14. That would be every other day or any day I don’t stream. Which is doable since I can do it once he (my son) falls asleep at night. If his dad is off in the afternoon or only has to go in for the afternoon then I will be doing a workout while he is home. Unless I have a feeling my son will have an extra long nap then I will try to get the 40 minute Elliptical workout there!

Under Calories

Again. You can probably see this as being a direct result of me smoking weed and munching out. The goal is to have 10/14 days under calories in the next 2 weeks. If I need to go to bed early after I make my Son’s bottles are made for the following day so be it. But I need to stop the late night snacking and munching because working out doesn’t mean a free pass to eating as much as someone at an all you can eat buffet.

Days Smoked Weed

This is also obviously a problem as well too. When I do so well during the day time I completely ruin it at night by smoking and munching on so many calories in such a small amount of time. My goal ultimately is to smoke weed MAXIMUM of 4 evenings. My goal is to only smoke on Saturday’s however there is an occasional day through the week where I would like to smoke it will be before a bath or bed so I am away from the kitchen!

Struggles

Weed is a constant struggle for me. Would I say I am addicted? No. Would I say I love getting high. Yes. But if I am going to lose weight I need to really cut back. My goal for the next 2 weeks is to smoke no more than 4 days in 14. I smoke at night when my son goes to bed but I need to cut back. And if I need to switch work outs to as soon as he goes to sleep to get there that is what I will have to do! Getting into the habit is hard for me because with being in quarantine I am unable to do anything. However I need to focus and really have some self discipline and not give in to temptations.

Victories

The fact that I worked out I would consider a victory for me. Working out normally is not a huge problem for me but to be able to do a few days instead of none is also great. Another would be that I do have some under calorie days which again, would be considered a victory for me.

Reflection

I know I can lose weight. I have done it before. I feel extremely nervous though sharing everything about me physically and basically opening myself up to you all. I think it is a way for me to be held accountable though and I am looking forward to where it takes me. I hope if you are reading this and made it here that you know that you are not alone in this. You can do it and even if you have a bad day it doesn’t mean all of your progress is gone!

-StaySeeJ

PS: I am new and trying this out for the first time!
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