I can’t believe it has been an entire year since I have done this! Like actually a whole year! So much has changed and I barely know where to begin. Hopefully I don’t go on rants or story telling here but honestly if it happens it happens. I also hope that this is not going to be something similar to my resolutions or anything because that would equally be awkward for you to read this. Here it goes though!

I AM A FREAKING MOM! LIKE MY BIRTHDAY WILL BE CELEBRATED WITH MY SPOUSE AND MY SON!! HOW FREAKING CRAZY IS THAT HUH?! It is absolutely mind blowing to think that I have a birthday with my son. Being a parent is extremely hard and will probably be one of the most difficult things I have ever done before. There is so many things to learn and so much advice and tips floating around that you have to find out what works for YOU. I know my partner and I have for sure butt heads when it comes to certain things but you really have to experiment. Find out things and not get stuck in a loop. Schedule is important but so is trying new things as your child begins to grow and learn more things too!

Covid has really sucked. It sucked because I have basically been trapped in my house since my Son was born. It sucked because I wasn’t able to go to his doctors appointments, not just because his doctor was french but because they only allow one parent and I just don’t have the french vocabulary that my boyfriend does to be able to ask the questions we want to ask. Not to mention My son wont be able to meet my parents (His grandparents) probably til we end up moving back home since we live in a place that is really high in Covid cases and my parents don’t. Travel is basically not happening anywhere and especially for them or us. We couldn’t even go to my Uncle’s house for Christmas that just passed due to different restrictions which also sucked too. Covid really made is so anything you wanted to do you really couldn’t. We have family from my boyfriends side constantly asking to hang out which we don’t do since Covid is pretty scary and we don’t want to take the risk. I have asthma and our son is only 10 months old. We just cannot afford to take the risk so we limit our seeing the public to very little.

I am most looking forward to moving. I know I am probably jinxing it right now but honestly that is the most important thing for me to look forward to right now. I cannot wait until we have our own space again, our own spot to decorate as much or as little as we want. I want a fence and a pool to be able to veg around. Some privacy would also be great hopefully we will have that. I also cannot wait to be close to my family again. Since moving to Quebec I only have 2 uncles here, that is all (They are married so its technically one house though!) Not that I would visit often. I mean it was only a 35 minute drive away but I am lazy and don’t go there much though. However the option to drive to my parents whenever I wanted even if I didn’t would also be great too. When we lived in Nova Scotia I never really went there all that much as I was still 30 minute drive away but the point is that the option would be there. I would love to be able to go back and have that in my life. I want my parents to meet their newest and youngest grandson.

Weight loss is something I have been open about struggling with. I want to get that under control finally. If you are people who have read my blog previously you know that this is something I talk about quite frequently. I really want to get a handle on this. I will do my best to slowly stop smoking weed so often which has been really going well when I put my mind to it. I just have to keep busy and not fill the void of boredom with food. Even when I am baked I should be doing things that are useful with my hands instead of eating and eating. I am eating when I am bored and that is not a good thing. Especially when this happens at night which is more often than not. I spent a lot of money on David’s Teas and that is what I need to focus on when I want something a bit sweet is something like that. I also am going to be starting on Jan 11th a weight loss group. Where you pay 20$ and you try to lost the highest percentage of body weight and see whoever win’s takes the pot. I think it will be a great start and a friend is also doing this as well too so it will be a nice help. I hope I could win it because it would be a nice little treat for myself too!

Baby number 2 is going to be a huge motivation. Not saying my son isn’t but I would like to majorly lose weight for the next pregnancy. I would much rather get pregnant and the max weight be the weight I am not then gain weight to be 275lbs again. That was extremely hard to do and I look back and am wondering how i even did that! Not to mention the amount of candy and chocolate I eat now would not be acceptable with a baby inside especially if I get worried about gestational diabetes which is a worry that I think I will have for all of my pregnancy’s. I know that I have to do this as I don’t want to be old and struggling to keep up with my kids, especially since we would like a few more!

There you have it though, My updated reflection on my birthday! It has been a crazy year, I am for sure feeling my age by the looks of the grey hair that are sprouting from my roots. But I couldn’t think of a more wacky and exciting year it has been! Here is to the next one!

Also I am PUMPED for ice cream cake too 🙂

What do you look forward to when your birthday comes around?
Do you like doing anything? Or do you just do something low key? Or not celebrate at all?

Let me know in the comments below!

-StaySeeJ