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June Update 2021

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Where do I begin with this update! I feel like I have so much to share! So I guess we can start in the beginning.

If you have been following you know that we are about 15 weeks pregnant with our second child right now. It is incredible that we are bringing another tiny human into the world and keeping our family growing. Our goal was to always have 3 kids and since we waited a bit longer to have children then we would try to have them close together so far so good in that department. Hopefully before our big move we can find out the gender of the baby as well since we wont be able to get some appointments for a bit of time.

We have in fact also found a home! I will be mentioning a bit more about that in the near future for a blog post however it will be ours! It is a nice approximately 1500 square foot home. Outside is about 25,000 square foot land. It is close enough to neighbors that you can see them in case you need to and it is on a nice small quiet street too. It is only about 8-10 minutes from my parents house which will be helpful as well if we need help though I think our home will be keeping us busy for a very long time as we try to get things organized and to our liking.

Covid is still around which sucks however finally here in Quebec due to vaccinations being administered there are restrictions finally, and I mean FINALLY easing up. There has been a no private gathering rule in place since October 31st or so of 2020. There is also a curfew at 8pm originally and now at 930pm and that will finally be over as of the 28th of May. By the time this is released I will have spend a few hours on the weekend with my Uncle’s at their home. We are excited to finally have some contact since you are able to have outdoor gatherings at a maximum of 8 people. We will hopefully be able to spend some time the next few weekends with them as the weather gets warmer and then when we transition to our new home we will also be spending time with them in order to avoid a hotel. That would be because with a cat and a dog we would like to avoid a hotel as much as possible for the sake of our own sanity! The only downside of this is that currently in Nova Scotia they are in the biggest covid wave since the beginning. Thankfully as I write this they finally are having some lower numbers but for a while they were having bigger numbers a few hundred per day for a while. We are hopeful that by the time we get back they will still have gatherings allowed as right now they are not allowed. Other than that we will just have to wait and see. The crummy part of this move is that we really can’t plan anything until a few weeks before in terms of staying. We might have to drop the dog off at my parents house and then we will have to stay in a hotel for a night or two til our things arrive and then maybe change our address to our home and stay there instead. Hopefully mid June we have some answers for ourselves but only time will tell as things change. We will have to however do 2 weeks isolation as that has been a rule in place for a very long time with Nova Scotia.

And as for me, I really have to be strong and hold fast on my rules that I am making for June. I want to have a lot of structure in terms of planning in order to get things prepped for the move. I want to really tackle writing blogs and being able to catch up on everything. My goal is to HOPEFULLY be able to schedule as much as possible til about September. Whether that be tweets on Twitter, Blogs and prepping those to be scheduled as well to. I want to really do as little as possible while seeming to be active. When I had my son I really did not do a whole lot in terms of keeping active which is fine, but overall it hurt my growth everywhere and I would like to try to make it as fine as possible with little to no worries. That way when I do end up coming back I don’t have a lot of stress over the summer while we get settled back into our new forever home and new normal. And also after we do our isolation I will probably need to have some appointments especially me for check-ups with the baby as well too which I would like to just get everything happening and phone calls ready though. I already started prepping some of the things we will be taking in the car as well as some of the lists we will need to take care of once we are there.

Other than that, I think excitement will be the driving force here. I find myself not wanting to take naps as much and just wanting to get things done. I also hope I can do some extra blogs in the process as well too and mention my blog more on social medias which I think will help gain some traction as well too. The fact we will finally have our own space to share with our family and a fresh back yard with privacy again is amazing. We never really had privacy before since we were always close to our neighbors, this will be a refreshing start and I cannot wait to share it with you all! The only thing stopping us, which I would never want to wish away, is time!

What are some moving tips you have from moving across provinces or states?
Is there anything you over thought and it wasn’t as big of a deal as you assumed it would be?

Let me know in the comments below!

– Stacey

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How I Write My Blog Posts

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When I first started seriously blogging I had nearly no idea what I was doing. Literally none. I just wanted to be a blogger and I kind of did it however it was more rants and totally sporadic. There was no rhyme or reason. That is until I though blogging could be a serious way to make some type of footprint in the world of writing.

I started blogging seriously in preparation for my son. I was a streamer and would stream pretty heavy hours. I wanted to branch out into more than just streaming. I always loved writing and thought this could be a great way to still produce some type of content while waiting for my son to be born. Though the schedule was a bit tricky I could still schedule posts and pre-write them so I was still putting out content even when he was still a newborn and I had little to no sleep.

I first started with goals for blogging. That would be to try to have some growth and see where it goes. I knew I wanted to see if i could eventually make some kind of income though I still have legit no idea how to make that happen as of right now but I am working on growing followers as well as my email mailing list. I think that is good starts for it as well. I had dabbled with the idea of starting a blog in the past however I had no idea where I wanted to start or how I would go about it even. I had done a few posts but never really knew or understood how I would go about growing it, continuing, how often to post or anything. When I became pregnant with my son I knew that I wanted to take it a big more seriously and try to get something happening.

When I first decided to blog, I believe I posted on a few different days, still two days a week though but it was all about streaming. I thought because I was a streamer that I had to write about something that I knew. Which was streaming. I wasn’t really a big streamer by any means just one that was around a long time and felt like I could offer some tips and tricks to people if they wanted to see what it was about. I would strictly post about streaming like that was my niche. I know it seemed like a good idea. I was posting it on twitter when I was publishing posts and then I was seeing how it would go. I never really posted it anywhere and didn’t do anything to push them out. I just “hoped” that people would read them. They didn’t. After about the summer I realized that it was time to change it up. I started to write about my life, different aspects like parenting, funny stories, little rants. And well, here we are if you are familiar with my blogs you will see I don’t really have a “niche” per-say but I still do quite well I think!

Since I don’t really have any specific subject that I write about, it can be challenging to narrow down something to actually write about. What I normally do is if I am away from the computer I will save the title in my phone in a notepad and when I have a handful saved Ill save them into word press as a draft. It can be the weirdest times that something pops up. Sometimes when I wake up in the middle of the night, sometimes it has to do with something on TV or somethings it has to do with food or life or parenting in general. You can see that I kind of have a random amount of topics in here and to be fair, I just cant really narrow it down though!

I structure paragraphs after I figure out the title. I typically have an intro and outro which is standard I assume, and questions at the end of the post. In the middle I try to if I can write in subject words for the paragraphs where I can just start writing. Just words to break down what I am thinking and to help the flow with my train of though. For this I had the words “Paragraphs” and the next was “Googling Occasionally for idea jolts” to help with what I need to write about. I find it helps prevent me from having a writers blog mid way through a post, however if that does happen I have learned to leave the post and then come back to it at a later date to finish!

Sometimes I occasionally will google “blog ideas” and see if anything triggers some ideas for myself. I don’t like writing the standard posts I want to put my own spin on them. Sometimes when you google topics it can give you a very generic idea and I like to hone in on something more specific. Is that good or bad? I am not entirely sure since it can be maybe a little too specific. But I don’t want to write blogs full of fluff or rainbows. I want to write about real life subjects even if they are a bit tough too.

I would say my first year blogging I did OK, I went too hard on one subject but overall I think it could be a lot worse and I STILL could be writing things about streaming and going no where. But instead I changed my focus and here we are nearly at 200 followers and working on getting more daily/weekly/monthly views.

My goal by the end of 2021 would be to have about 500 followers on the blog. And hopefully in the process grow my email list which I think could be a great tool to use as well too. I think the hardest part is admitting that something I started might not be the same as when I finished. If I knew or thought about changing subject I would have done it a lot sooner. And to be fair, I have a lot more fun and enjoyment talking about subjects randomly instead of the same things about streaming and gaming all of the time.

How did you find this blog?
Are you a blogger yourself?
If so, What do you blog about?

Let me know in the comments below!

– Stacey

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March Update 2021

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I cannot believe I am writing a new update for a new month. I feel like just the other day I was actually writing an update for February! I dont want to say time is flying but it may just be flying on by this year. Not that I would be complaining about it because it feels GREAT to finally see the end of the tunnel and the light shining through it. I feel like soon enough I will be writing the update for April!

A major thing I want to update but not update would be my weight. Though I do write the bi-weekly blogs on that I have been struggling. I need to really hammer down this month and try to lose weight. Not to mention I think we are going to start trying to grow our family a bit more and even though I wanted to lose weight before we started trying again I feel like I may even lose some weight when we become pregnant again. The last time I was pregnant I was told by the doctor that I could safely lose weight because a baby inside is going to take the nutrients that they want to so you wont be “starving” them like some may thing. This was also a misconception that I also though too! I am looking forward to this next chapter in our lives as crazy as it might be weight loss should be something I focus on but right now I am focusing on loving myself and getting back into the swing of things while not being totally harsh on myself when I slip up with calories or something also.

A HUGE milestone in my house is that my son turned one this past week! It still is completely weird for me to wrap my head around the fact that we delivered him with out any medications and how fast it happened. Everyone said that the first baby can take a long time to really happen and that couldn’t have been more opposite this time! I cannot believe that he is a whole year old. With Covid floating around the world and what not it really is incredible how quickly that the year has come and gone. I feel sad though when I think about the things he missed out on like meeting family members who were unable to travel due to restrictions in the different provinces in Canada however I am so excited to be looking forward to the move in a few short months.

If you missed the update for February we were given the news we will be moving back home to Nova Scotia this year! I cannot wait for that to happen either. WE were going to buy a house however the homeowners we’re a bit off and completely screwed with mine and my boyfriend’s head however that is another blog to write in the future haha

The other major thing that I said we should do as well is paint. If I have to paint at night when Vincent is in bed or when it gets cooler that would be the biggest thing for me as well too. It wouldn’t be a big deal to my significant other if the paint wasn’t done but for me the paint in the house is the same paint that was there when I was a teenager going over there after we smoked weed and played video games. That is probably the biggest thing to do only because by painting the house I feel like it will really make the home feel like ours and not my friends parents! I already have a basic color scheme for it which is a start I just have to really hammer things down for it though. My goal is to do artwork on my streams in the meantime to hopefully have some new pieces to hang on the walls and really help us feel like ours too. I have been killing pinterest searching for different styles and artwork that I could re-create and tweek to suit out new home!

The major thing I would like to do on this current rental home is to clean out the basement. I know I basically did something like that when I was 8 months pregnant but I mean I really would like to deep clean the house though. I have a bunch of rubber made totes that have things filed and packed in however I need to go through those totes. It is pretty organized with different things like papers, decorations, even some clothing or the front hall closet, but I would like to really gut those boxes so that I am able to fully organize things. Lucky for us when we move we don’t have to pack as the job place that my boyfriend works will set that up for us. But I would like to make it as a easy as possible and prevent the over packing again too like when we moved here. There is probably things that we haven’t used in such a long time that they can be gotten rid of and that is my goal for March is to fully organize so that we can just pack up and leave seamlessly.

Overall I am looking forward to this month flying by also. I cannot wait to be away from this province and back in to my new home and living close to my family. I know we will be away form my partner’s however with a family we would like to keep growing it just makes sense to move somewhere that I will have some people who can help if we need it. Not to mention, At least Nova Scotia has a lot less covid cases compared to here too!


-Stacey

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Weight Loss Wednesday #1 – Jan 14th-Jan 20th[6 Days]

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I need to be held accountable. Simple as that.

I have decided to do so, I will be bringing you along the weight loss journey. We recently have gotten AMAZING News about moving back to my home province so that means weight loss before baby number 2. And I mean I have to hammer down NOW! I will be writing blogs every other Wednesday til about June or so when we move. Every 2 weeks I will update (with pictures!!)

Three criteria: Days I smoked weed, Days I exercised, and Days under calories (Max 1500). Along with triumphs and struggles, and updated side and front photos too. Normally I pick subjects and write about them and if they become relevant schedule them or write about a current subject as it pops up. Not this time. Chances are you are reading this blog and it was written last night. I will have photos of calendars that I will be filling out to see things easier and an overview of how I am doing. I wont be typing up what exactly I eat in a day as I do not have the time to do that but this will be a good overview for all you visual readers! Simple “X” Day’s mean that I failed at the calendar’s goals. While if I pass I will briefly fill it in. If I am under my calories I will Highlight it with a marker, if I don’t smoke weed it will be colored in, and if I exercise I will briefly write it in ie: Elliptical 40 mins, Exercise DVD, etc. and I will write a reflection on each calendar and then a brief spot after for my struggles and victories of the week!

If you are someone who is familiar with my blogs you know that I struggle with weight loss, I have most of my life and recently wrote about it too, You can read that blog here.

My low goal is to lose 30lbs before we move. Which is no over-reaching. If I lose anywhere from 30-50lbs that would be a major bonus for me. My starting weight is 242.4lbs. I know. I feel like a whale and need to take control of myself again. The goal before baby number 2 is cooking in there is under 210lbs. It is totally doable I just need to hammer down and stop eating my feelings, good and bad.

These are my before photos. I am unhappy. I hate how I look. And I am ready to be healthy once and for all. My current weight in these photos (Taken on Friday, January 15th, 2021) 242.4lbs. I feel like even if I was to drop below 210lbs that would be a huge accomplishment for me.
Measurements are:
Waist -47.0 Inches
Hips- 54.0 Inches
Bust – Over – 46.0 Inches
– Under – 39.5 Inches
Thighs – Left – 30.5 Inches
-Right – 30.0 Inches
Arms – Left – 13.5 Inches
– Right – 14.5 Inches

I always do measurements only because I know sometimes I haven’t lost really any pounds and I have lost inches and that is a little extra motivator!

Exercise Log

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Any exercise is good, but ideal would be a Workout DVD or 40 minute Elliptical workout!

Obviously I need to majorly up this. However I find that I struggle if my son doesn’t sleep very well during the day. That being said my next goal for the following 2 weeks is to workout 8 days out of 14. That would be every other day or any day I don’t stream. Which is doable since I can do it once he (my son) falls asleep at night. If his dad is off in the afternoon or only has to go in for the afternoon then I will be doing a workout while he is home. Unless I have a feeling my son will have an extra long nap then I will try to get the 40 minute Elliptical workout there!

Under Calories

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Check with a ? Means that I assume close or under, but I ate something I’m not entirely sure what the calories were as I couldn’t find anything with the exact number.

Again. You can probably see this as being a direct result of me smoking weed and munching out. The goal is to have 10/14 days under calories in the next 2 weeks. If I need to go to bed early after I make my Son’s bottles are made for the following day so be it. But I need to stop the late night snacking and munching because working out doesn’t mean a free pass to eating as much as someone at an all you can eat buffet.

Days Smoked Weed

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X = For sure smoked a joint that day.. LOL

This is also obviously a problem as well too. When I do so well during the day time I completely ruin it at night by smoking and munching on so many calories in such a small amount of time. My goal ultimately is to smoke weed MAXIMUM of 4 evenings. My goal is to only smoke on Saturday’s however there is an occasional day through the week where I would like to smoke it will be before a bath or bed so I am away from the kitchen!

Struggles

Weed is a constant struggle for me. Would I say I am addicted? No. Would I say I love getting high. Yes. But if I am going to lose weight I need to really cut back. My goal for the next 2 weeks is to smoke no more than 4 days in 14. I smoke at night when my son goes to bed but I need to cut back. And if I need to switch work outs to as soon as he goes to sleep to get there that is what I will have to do! Getting into the habit is hard for me because with being in quarantine I am unable to do anything. However I need to focus and really have some self discipline and not give in to temptations.

Victories

The fact that I worked out I would consider a victory for me. Working out normally is not a huge problem for me but to be able to do a few days instead of none is also great. Another would be that I do have some under calorie days which again, would be considered a victory for me.

Reflection

I know I can lose weight. I have done it before. I feel extremely nervous though sharing everything about me physically and basically opening myself up to you all. I think it is a way for me to be held accountable though and I am looking forward to where it takes me. I hope if you are reading this and made it here that you know that you are not alone in this. You can do it and even if you have a bad day it doesn’t mean all of your progress is gone!

-StaySeeJ

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My 31st Birthday!

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I can’t believe it has been an entire year since I have done this! Like actually a whole year! So much has changed and I barely know where to begin. Hopefully I don’t go on rants or story telling here but honestly if it happens it happens. I also hope that this is not going to be something similar to my resolutions or anything because that would equally be awkward for you to read this. Here it goes though!

I AM A FREAKING MOM! LIKE MY BIRTHDAY WILL BE CELEBRATED WITH MY SPOUSE AND MY SON!! HOW FREAKING CRAZY IS THAT HUH?! It is absolutely mind blowing to think that I have a birthday with my son. Being a parent is extremely hard and will probably be one of the most difficult things I have ever done before. There is so many things to learn and so much advice and tips floating around that you have to find out what works for YOU. I know my partner and I have for sure butt heads when it comes to certain things but you really have to experiment. Find out things and not get stuck in a loop. Schedule is important but so is trying new things as your child begins to grow and learn more things too!

Covid has really sucked. It sucked because I have basically been trapped in my house since my Son was born. It sucked because I wasn’t able to go to his doctors appointments, not just because his doctor was french but because they only allow one parent and I just don’t have the french vocabulary that my boyfriend does to be able to ask the questions we want to ask. Not to mention My son wont be able to meet my parents (His grandparents) probably til we end up moving back home since we live in a place that is really high in Covid cases and my parents don’t. Travel is basically not happening anywhere and especially for them or us. We couldn’t even go to my Uncle’s house for Christmas that just passed due to different restrictions which also sucked too. Covid really made is so anything you wanted to do you really couldn’t. We have family from my boyfriends side constantly asking to hang out which we don’t do since Covid is pretty scary and we don’t want to take the risk. I have asthma and our son is only 10 months old. We just cannot afford to take the risk so we limit our seeing the public to very little.

I am most looking forward to moving. I know I am probably jinxing it right now but honestly that is the most important thing for me to look forward to right now. I cannot wait until we have our own space again, our own spot to decorate as much or as little as we want. I want a fence and a pool to be able to veg around. Some privacy would also be great hopefully we will have that. I also cannot wait to be close to my family again. Since moving to Quebec I only have 2 uncles here, that is all (They are married so its technically one house though!) Not that I would visit often. I mean it was only a 35 minute drive away but I am lazy and don’t go there much though. However the option to drive to my parents whenever I wanted even if I didn’t would also be great too. When we lived in Nova Scotia I never really went there all that much as I was still 30 minute drive away but the point is that the option would be there. I would love to be able to go back and have that in my life. I want my parents to meet their newest and youngest grandson.

Weight loss is something I have been open about struggling with. I want to get that under control finally. If you are people who have read my blog previously you know that this is something I talk about quite frequently. I really want to get a handle on this. I will do my best to slowly stop smoking weed so often which has been really going well when I put my mind to it. I just have to keep busy and not fill the void of boredom with food. Even when I am baked I should be doing things that are useful with my hands instead of eating and eating. I am eating when I am bored and that is not a good thing. Especially when this happens at night which is more often than not. I spent a lot of money on David’s Teas and that is what I need to focus on when I want something a bit sweet is something like that. I also am going to be starting on Jan 11th a weight loss group. Where you pay 20$ and you try to lost the highest percentage of body weight and see whoever win’s takes the pot. I think it will be a great start and a friend is also doing this as well too so it will be a nice help. I hope I could win it because it would be a nice little treat for myself too!

Baby number 2 is going to be a huge motivation. Not saying my son isn’t but I would like to majorly lose weight for the next pregnancy. I would much rather get pregnant and the max weight be the weight I am not then gain weight to be 275lbs again. That was extremely hard to do and I look back and am wondering how i even did that! Not to mention the amount of candy and chocolate I eat now would not be acceptable with a baby inside especially if I get worried about gestational diabetes which is a worry that I think I will have for all of my pregnancy’s. I know that I have to do this as I don’t want to be old and struggling to keep up with my kids, especially since we would like a few more!

There you have it though, My updated reflection on my birthday! It has been a crazy year, I am for sure feeling my age by the looks of the grey hair that are sprouting from my roots. But I couldn’t think of a more wacky and exciting year it has been! Here is to the next one!

Also I am PUMPED for ice cream cake too 🙂

What do you look forward to when your birthday comes around?
Do you like doing anything? Or do you just do something low key? Or not celebrate at all?

Let me know in the comments below!

-StaySeeJ

January Update 2021

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Naturally I’m slacking at anything and everything. But, don’t we all during the holidays? I feel like this year I completely was in a “screw it” mindset. From being on lock down and unable to go anywhere for Christmas, not even to my Uncle’s house to celebrate. I have felt like just kind of going into a minor sad sack party for one where I just don’t do anything at all. This has been basically all. Here is an update though however horrible it may turn out due to the fact that I am kind of hoping writing about it and prepping for this will help me get into a great mindset! As normal I am writing this a few days before it is released due to the fact that well, I have a 10 month old son and it is a lot easier to prep myself for blogs coming out then struggle to get it out on the exact day I release them to you all! So here we go into our update!

Weight Loss and Workouts have been non-existent. Going forward obviously I am going to be starting a new workout schedule. I am going to try doing the Elliptical 5 days a week, These will be on Saturday and Sunday, And then Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursdays. Monday and Friday will be off days for Elliptical. I also would like to introduce some workout DVD’s into the mix. My goal is to do those about 4 or 5 days a week as well maybe Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday’s. Those will be just to change things up a bit and I’m able to put my son in his play pen while I do them. Obviously I wont be doing them if my Boyfriend is home because I find it embarrassing to do something like that if he were to watch. They also are about 30 minutes and I am sure my son will find it funny to see Mommy jumping around and or dancing and things as well too. I think by changing it up I wont get so bored of working out. As far as calories goes, I am sticking to anywhere from 1250 to 1750 calories per day as well. I know it will be hard to do but I have faith I can do it though. I have only allowed myself about 7 days to smoke weed and if I count my birthday in the beginning of the month as well as every Saturday it really only leaves me with 1 flex smoking weed day. With this goal munching and sabotaging myself will probably be non-existent I hope.

Streaming is something I am really looking forward to this year. I am loving the Art streams on Sunday’s and hope to incorporate more into the schedule as well too. I am going to start with streaming 4 days a week again and have a bit more structure. I am confident I can make this work because I wont be smoking as much weed either. When I smoke too much before a stream I get lazy and end streams way too early, or I just am not in a good attitude. And even if I am I just want to munch and I’m not putting my all into content creation like I should be doing. i want to make the channel more of a brand and not just a person playing video games. I would like to convey to people that I am taking this content creation thing seriously and that I would like to make some sort of “Job” out of this as well too. In order to do that as “Easy” as it might be, I need to treat it like a job and I wouldn’t be getting high or leaving work early right!

Art is going to be a bigger focus in my life and streams. Everyone needs some sort of creative outlet. This is what I am going to be doing. Sometimes Ill be doing artwork for when (Hopefully this year) we move back to Nova Scotia. Sometimes Ill be doing art work to go up on my socials for sale and hopefully make a few dollars that way also. I will be using this as a creative outlet and hopefully become more zen with myself. I find I can let a lot of little things effect me and make me angry when they shouldn’t. I lash out at my loved ones of I bottle things up til I get really mad. I shouldn’t be doing this. Not to mention being stuck inside due to COVID certainly has not helped anyone either. This is a way for me to really start to be in touch with my creative self again. Whether it be beginning to write in my books or whether it be drawing or writing. This is something growing up my parents would always nurture. Whether they gave encouraging words, or they were buying me different and new art supplies they always wanted me to be doing something like this because they knew I was able to. Even crafting and things as well. I need to do more of this in my life and streaming and sharing it with others is exactly how I am going to do that!

Financial Independence is something that I would like to get back. Being a stay at home mom is great but I miss being able to have some type of an income coming in. Whether it be with streams or the blog or some premium content in the future I know that I would like to make a monthly income of 250-500$. I don’t think that is unreasonable with what I am doing now its tweaking and making things more accessible to what people may be wanting in their life. I will be giving myself til the end of the year to try to make a somewhat steady income.

This is a super rough over view of my update for January.

What are your goals you would like to achieve before the year is out, Are they different then last year.

Let me know what your helpful tips are when you are trying to keep on track of things.
I am always looking for different ways to adapt my own too!

-StaySeeJ

New Year’s Resolutions

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If you are reading this you will probably notice this is released WAY before New Years Eve. Mostly because I would like to take 2 weeks off from blogging (Officially since I have been on mini hiatus through out the year) and spend some time with my little family since it will be the first one for my son!

New Years Resolutions are tricky. You have the typical I want to save money or I want to lose weight. Where everyone goes hard on making these goals happen while falling off the wagon so to speak at the end of January. Typically I do not really set goals or haven’t done really resolutions in a very very long time. Not that I can remember anyways. This year I want to do something different though. I want to try to set myself up for success BEFORE the new year begins and have a solid, sustainable plan. I would like to do some things so that if I slack I can make life a bit easier and not have to worry about slacking off.

First what I am doing is laying out a plan. Not in my planner per-say but in my content creation scribbler. This is where I go through with the help of a calender and write out all the dates for specific things ie: All the days in a month down the page for streaming so I can accurately keep track of my streams and how long I stream. I wrote out all of the dates blogs will release so every single Tuesday and Saturday so that I can just fill in the title and how many words are in each (With the goal being a 1000 minimum for each). I also will be writing every Monday and Friday for the different youtube videos that I would like to be putting out as well too. This way I can see dates that are upcoming and figure out if they are around a holiday, Do I want to do something before or use that subject for it, whatever the case might be. I have an agenda but I mostly us this for other goals and things. My scribbler is something that I carry over from year to year!

Blogs, I would like to pre-write 25 at least. I know this seems daunting however I would like to write a book (Another blog subject!) and if i can get a bunch of blogs written before hand I can just schedule them as the time comes. And if a subject is more relavant than another I can switch them around. Not to mention if we hopefully get pregnant with baby number 2 next year that is a whole new batch of blogs so if I am able to do something ahead of time on subjects that won’t be changing ie: Types of food I like, I want to write a book, What I keep track of when trying to lose weight etc, It can help me keep busy and not snack in the mean time! Though if I post a review or something that wont be schedule I will just post them as it happens. Reviews are a lot longer than these by about 500 words so for me to post them willy nilly it really wont be an issue! Just as long as I have seen the movie or show I want to review!

I want to write a book. I have a bit of a start by researching types of mythical creatures but overall I would like to start with a mini series of short stories. Where each book focuses on a types of mythical creatures, so an example would be perhaps like classics ie: vampires and werewolves and witches. And so on. These short stories will be anywhere from 7500-10,000 words each with approximately 5 stories in each book. My goal would be to start with writing one of these books. If I get more bonus. To achieve this I will be scheduling in some writing time each week so that I can just write. The key is being disciplined enough to actually write when I schedule it. I would ultimately like to write a series simular to Harry Potter but I feel like starting with these would be kind of neat and work on my creativity as well too.

And one of the last goals I have and certainly not least, Losing weight. I want to continue to lose weight. I feel like it is extremely harder for me to lose weight right now especially since giving birth to my son. But I would much rather be my current weight as the max weigth with baby number 2 than gain as much as I did with my son. That was a lot of weight and I know it will probably be much harder this time around while caring for him and pregnant. I feel like I am in a good place where I am not really smoking as much weed which is a huge success. Obviously I indulge a bit over the holidays but we will be right back at it though. If I want to lose weight I cannot smoke as much weed as I have been. I self sabotage myself so much that I need to learn to not do that anymore. Truth be told, I feel a lot better though since slowing down the smoking since I am not completely eating a weeks worth of calories by bingeing in an hour!

Overall time will tell if I stick to these resolutions, The major thing I think will be if and when we move back home. I am looking forward to having out own house again, our own space and privacy. I would like to be able to paint and decorate our house and have a bedroom where I don’t have to crawl out of bed but I can walk around the entire thing. I would like to be a drive away from my parents even If I don’t end up going there often because I am lay the possibility will still be there again and that is exciting!

Do you make resolutions for the new year?
Did you use to and don’t now?

Let me know in the commented below! I’m curious!

-StaySeeJ08

December Update

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December is a month I am looking forward to the most this year. Why you may ask, Because it means that HOPEFULLY next year I will be on my way back to Nova Scotia and away from Quebec. This province is actually a different country INSIDE of Canada. A blog in the future will be coming out about that though. Not to mention my favorite holiday is also in December which after is my Birthday month! More blogs coming as well for the holidays I just have to really think about them and type them up this week! Now that my house is decorated and things as well too!

I’m quitting weed. Ok. Let’s not get too crazy here. I’m not really quitting but I am drastically cutting back. That is for sure. The reality of weed and me is that when I smoke I get lazy, as in I’ll stop the stream earlier than I would like, not helping me grow or be consistent. I already stream at a peek hour in the evening which is not ideal for someone who wants to grow or see any type of improvement since so many heavy hitters are also on as well. I am ending the stream after an hour which I am not happy about doing since it doesn’t really get people who know the stream to really get involved too! Not to mention I then beat myself up about it because I know ending a stream early is not helping any thing I am looking to achieve. I also have no self control high. I literally will eat and eat and eat til I feel like crap and do it all again the next time. From here on out no more high streams and only smoking on Friday and Saturday. However when I see results with pounds being gone I’m sure it may be even less. Though there will be a special time when I probably have a puff or so on stream it just wont be in the way of my goals for the channel too! Not to mention it doesn’t help my weight AT ALL either!

Stream schedule will be adding back Sundays as an art stream. I used to do those every Sunday morning last year as part of an emote re-creation wall. Then the year was over and I didn’t know what to do. I’m bringing this back in part for myself. I miss crafting and art. So by putting it in the stream I’m a little forced to do it. Mentally I think it will help me have a creative outlet while being cooped up inside due to Covid.

Blog direction will be steering away from streams or streaming subjects. The support I received from the weight loss struggles has been overwhelming, not to mention after nearly a year of blogging, it made me realize that obviously streaming topics were complete misses. I’ll be keeping it to  a more personal and open subject, just life to parenting to my opinion too. Sure maybe streaming subjects will pop up from time to time but it won’t be anytime soon! I think we will also be trying to re-vamp the blog a bit and make it more personal. To really lean away from the whole streaming section. Make it more appealing and more interesting for people to want to read it. Not to mention I have to think of a catchy name for the blog as well too. Which can be challenging in itself since it can sometimes make or break a blog! I want it to be captivating and capture what the blog is really about! And obviously a touch of humor too!

YouTube will be changing in part with the weed thing. I can’t record baked beauty if I’m barely smoking weed maybe once I get a handle on my eating I will bring it back, but for now a mini break. I have 2 video ideas for uploads in January. it will be still Monday and Fridays. Mondays will be the crafting or creating section but sped up and put to music like a satisfying video. Friday’s will be a stream highlight video. Both should be fairly easy to edit. I need to really manage my time and think about how I can not spend a lot of time editing one video. I need to really think about ways to not spend a long time on a video, when I spend a long time on a video I find myself being extremely lazy and unmotivated to keep going.

Content Overall I think will be taking a major step forward with planning the next year to be successful. I really am trying to plan my blogs and videos so that I don’t miss anything and I can be consistent. I am my own biggest critique. When I plan big things and I dont do them right or I slack I then spiral and slack even more about it. I need to set myself up for success and I think with me planning and having a clearer mind it will really help in the long run for sure!

Crafting and Me time as much as I didn’t want to schedule this I think adding it back into the streams will be great. I really enjoyed when we did the emote artwork on my channel every Sunday morning. Mind you, with a baby they will be in the evenings but I think it will be a great way to have a little creative moments and self care for myself to start the week. Sometimes I find myself getting lazy when it comes to things that I enjoy. I don’t have to do a full stream of it but if we just hung around with members of my community and did artwork and what not I think that will be a great start to some good growth and pulling in viewers who just want to relax without game play.

The reality is I say all these things I just hope I can really stick to them! I have a good feeling that this could be a good month and here is hoping I keep the momentum going though! I need to remember that if I slip up though to not be so hard on myself and when or if it happens not to let the one day snow ball! That is a downfall I have where I let one slip up continue and I shouldn’t be like that!

See you at the end of the month for another update! And prep your belly’s for some sweet blogs this month!

-StaySeeJ08

I struggle with weight loss.

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As you may or may not know based on the MANY blogs I have wrote about this, Weight loss for me is hard. For more reasons than I would like to admit. Before I start, This is not a way for me to make excuses and what not. This is me putting out my struggle with my weight in to the world to see if I can make changes, Be held accountable. And maybe if you decide to follow the journey that I am going to be doing you will be inspired to figure out your own healthy lifestyle in the process as well too!

I am a very picky eater. In fact, There is probably more that I don’t eat than things that I do. From meat, The only things I eat there are processed fish sticks, chicken nuggets, chicken breast and sometimes different parts of a chicken and hotdogs ( if you even call it meat) and bacon.. Which obviously I do not eat really that often. I do like some nuts and seeds though so that helps. As far as veggies go, I eat potatoes very rarely and sometimes sweet potato fries. Fruits I don’t eat anything. I will drink orange juice or apple juice and VERY rarely smoothies but it really depends on how I feel for that as well. I would say I love pastas and cheese and dairy but anything really different I just do not eat complicated “adult” meals. As a kid I did eat a lot more but as I got older my parents went with the “Don’t eat this no dessert” And I just never had dessert. No one was forcing me! It also is a texture thing for me as well. I don’t eat certain things because they are too “gooey”. This is probably why I don’t like pudding or jello as well. It boggles my boyfriends mind that I will drink a David’s Tea blend with dried fruits and things but I wont eat the fruit itself. It is a little weird right?

Also before you are all “BuT wHy DoNt YoU JuSt EaT tHiNgS” it really isn’t that simple at all. I have almost an anxiety over trying new food. If I want to try something I have to mentally prepare for it for at least a few days and how I will make it. I also have a thing with sizes. When I see a whole chicken breast I feel like it is just SOO much to eat at once. But if I was to chop that same chicken breast up into small pieces and say pan fry it with some honey garlic sauce that would be more appealing to me. As far as meat goes, I have no desire really to eat a burger or steak while pork just sounds gross to me. I wouldn’t ever be a vegetarian however I would be down for mostly being one I guess?

I am my own worst enemy. I eat when I am happy and I eat when I am sad. I eat when I am bored and I eat when I am busy. And Im not talking meals Im talking like I am just snacking on chips, chocolate, junk food, and all mindless. A big setback for me is I smoke weed. I can do extremely well all day counting calories and really hammering down on working out and as soon as I have a puff I ruin it in the span of an hour and a half. Which is not healthy on more levels than one. Going forward I will only be smoking on days that I record one of my baked beauty and the occasional weekends as well too. I need to stop munching so much if I am unable to control myself. Its not worth it. I need to have self control and really get back to basics. I also need to focus on doing things with my hands which I got some new plastic canvas and have been killing pinterest for patterns and things as well too.

As I sit here writing this I had previously wrote half of the blog and wrote the other half now, I am a bit buzzed and ruined my calories in the span of about 45 minutes. I really need to be strict with myself. I don’t even think I would say half the problem is smoking weed. I would say its that I love candy and chocolate and eating it is well, I’m sure you can understand. This weekend when this releases on November 14th, I will be for sure planning my recording days til the end of the year. That way I can have designated days where I have a puff. Soon enough as well my boyfriend will be going back to work and since I don’t smoke in the day or when I am alone with my son I won’t be smoking as much. We will both be taking a day on the weekend to sleep in but through the week we have to be up early and I don’t want to be super beat and tired for that! (I am tired writing this since I was up at 5am though! haha)

I can do this. I have high goals. Here they are. It wont be easy but it will be so rewarding when I get there. Currently I am approx 239.9 pounds. I know. It disgusts me as well.
By the end of November Id like to be under 230 pounds.
By the end of December I would like to be under 220 pounds.
By the end of January I would like to be under 210 pounds.
I am speaking this into existence and hopefully it will trigger something to really hammer down and help me be motivated in this. I need to get this done before we have another baby. When they talk about sugar and things being addictive they really are. And until you are addicted to it, you never really know!

Thanks for reading, I will try my best to do this! And document progress. Maybe what I learn and do will help others!

-StaySeeJ08

YouTube Adventure.. Send Help!

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YouTube can be stressful. From thumbnails to clips to help promote your video on twitter, editing, recording, etc. For someone like me I felt it was something I would hold off on. Though I know that to grow on twitch you have to plant the content seeds on other platforms to drive traffic to your channel. I’m slowly figuring out with the help of some reading and thing from a streamer AshnieChrist that it is important to go into! Here is my thought process to taking this plunge.

What do I make videos of?
I have a 6 month old so something easy would be great. I wanted to start with 2 types of videos. One more of a help or thoughts focused on streaming where I take blogs I have written here and bring them to video in a series I’d like to call “Backseat Blogger” Things I have learned or things that I have thought about the industry. I will be going more into games once I start doing more gaming or dead by daylight blogs. That will be one type of video. The next type of video will be something I like to call “baked beauty” where I smoke weed and do funny makeup videos and things while baked. Thirdly I was thinking about doing a video when I have enough clips a series in Dead by Daylight where I am jump scared multiple times, this is more of a “when available” basis because I need to have enough clips per killer to make that. Plus the occasional fun games like no headsets which can be used on my channel for redeeming channel points.

When do I want to upload?
I want to upload at least 2x per week Mondays will be my backseat blogger videos. And then the “Baked Beauty” will be coming out on “Fr-HIGH-days hahaha.. see what I did there. Then the dead by daylight content will be out on Wednesdays when Available. Same with compilations for The Society, they will be once a month as well when enough clips get put in discord.

When do I record?
The Backseat blogger ones are easier in a sense. As soon as my son has a nap I can hit record and have a blog turned video entry ready to be edited. That is the simple part of recording. However what I did last time was I recorded about 4 videos in the span of an hour or so one evening and then I have them ready to be edited which I can do on the fly when I am free of housework or when the little fella is sleeping for a nap. Baked Beauty I normally record on Fridays or Thursdays or even Saturday night after my son went to bed because I am able to have puff. Before there are judging eyes since I am a parent there is one person sober in the house (My Boyfriend) who is able to take care of things if things happened. Those are harder to edit because I am hilarious and I don’t know what to cut haha.

How the heck do I edit?
Slowly. I edit slowly. I have never edited videos IN MY LIFE! Seriously, NEVER! I use a program called Divinci Resolve. It is a free software with a paid version as well and I edit them on that. It is a lot to learn from someone like me but with the help of YouTube tutorials I am able to do a quick search with a step by step process on how to do what I want. I typically also edit when my son is sleeping. And as I do more videos it is getting a bit quicker or I will be editing during Community Hangouts on Thursdays as a bit of downtime to connect with other society members!

What is the hardest parts so far?
I would say editing and recording. I knew that I wanted to be fully prepped for when I started youtube. One of the hardest things I think in any content creation is having the ability to plan and schedule things while being consistent. No one really follows someone who has never posted or when they do it is all over the place and not consistent. My boyfriend and I used to watch someone named Ray William Johnson, He had a show called Equals 3 when he would go through a few youtube videos per week or every other day or whatever. We watched him religiously. Then he stopped. Just like that. And we never looked back. Unless you can be consistent you cannot or will not see growth in my opinion. I think I have a pretty good handle on this to be able to do it properly AND even maybe bank some youtube videos so that I am able to have some relief. I dont want to spend a lot of time editing and recording and things but with the plan I have in place it seems to be going well.


Before I finish I will say this, AshniChrist (I know I talk about her a lot!) recently has had a YouTube FREE training session in her discord. She has VOD links and a few other things in there. I will be adding the link here so you can feel free to check it out. She is even offering a course in how to do YouTube better. She basically solidified that I am on the right path for my plan for YouTube. If I didn’t have a son and was regularly working I would be probably signing up for the course but due to limited funds I just am not in the financial position to do so. Discord here: https://discord.com/invite/ashnichrist

When it comes to investing in education to make yourself set up for success or learning new things about an industry that you love, DO IT! If you are financially able to of course, You would if you were trying to become a doctor or nurse, the same applies for content creation too!

Happy Creating and Good Luck! (Myself included!)

-StaySee xo