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I needed a break – Self Care Thursday – June 2nd 2022

It has been far too long since I gave you all a self care Thursday and update. But we are back.

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Just like life, when my mental health is in decline, things I did as a routine are lost. This blog weekly is one of them. I skipped a week a while back. Came back for what I believe was one week. And then disappeared. For you, my faithful readers who like and comment on these, I am sorry. Sometimes when things arise in life I put things on pause. I often feel overwhelmed and I often feel lost or have no drive to write. This is one of those times. There is a reason I often say that I write blogs in bulk. I have ideas and thoughts and I continuously try to write them in those moments and schedule them so it leaves me with free time. If I was to write my 3 sometimes 4 times per week blogs the day before I released then chances are I would be missing far more than I am now with the weekly posts.

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We are in week 6 of the weight loss challenge and while I am down 4lbs overall I am still struggling at night. I can do fantastic all day and as soon as I smoke at night my restraint from eating pointless junk literally goes away. I need to work on that even more. So for the month of June I have set myself a goal to be under 230 pounds. It is achievable and totally do-able. When I reach this I will be under the weight I was when I found out I was pregnant with my 1st son. So that is a very very long time ago. I have also started to not smoke so much during the day. When I smoke during the day I find that I am dragging my butt along and well, I need to get stuff done! That is a fact! So by not smoking during the day (most of the time) it has been a huge help. I am actually getting back on track right now by not smoking during the day and taking the time to actually schedule and write these. I am hoping to have the summer fully scheduled due to my partner being on parental.

Streams have been going great. I am super happy with my stats for May. In fact, I streamed the most I have since maybe 2020 in a month. It may not seem like a lot but it was certainy a lot for me. Did I miss a few streams, Yup. Was there a few streams that were shorter than they should have been, Yup. But I stuck to my schedule and mainly streamed when I was able to and that in itself was a major win for me.

One thing that has helped me get back on track is that I have actually been asking for help. If you are a parent or even a person like myself who wants to do everything themselves (I know, maybe I am a bit of a control freak and want things done my way) I never ask for help. I changed that. Just a few days ago I told my spouse that I was incredibly tired. My youngest has been awake and is on the verge of teething. I have been trying to get up when the late nights or should I say early mornings happen so he can sleep and for me it is extremely hard to get back to sleep. He was awake at 3am one night and I put his soother back and turned on his crib fish tank. I myself never went back to sleep till after 4am which then he was awake already at 5am or something but I brought him to our bed (I know breaking my own co-sleeping rules) and slept a little longer. And because I have been so tired I had a tension headache or whatever you want to call it. I told my spouse that I wanted to sleep in. So I prepped my youngest and got him ready with his bottle and that is exactly what I did. I went back to sleep. This is a huge thing for me to do because I would rather suffer it out than put the energy into asking for help. It makes me feel defeated but I need to remember that I can’t keep burning the candle at both ends.

There you have it! I am fully ready to be back, check in weekly, and hopefully you are still following along on the journey too!

I’m doing a weight loss challenge – Self Care Thursday – April 14th 2022

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I know, I did this late so if you are reading this after the Thursday it is supposed to be posted and PRETEND that I am on time. I swear we will be on time next week! I just have been majorly slacking and wallowing in self pity for whatever reason so I have been behind!

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I have decided to do a weight loss challenge. Through some folks on Facebook there had been a group of a 12 week weight loss challenge. The cost is 25$ and you weigh in on the Monday it starts and whenever you want towards the end. I am not entirely sure if it will go winner take all or not but I feel like for 25$ it still is cheaper than a gym membership or personal trainer that I hope it gives me the motivation that I need. I am so excited to start this and I really hope that I can get some pounds gone and maybe even winning something along the way as it goes too.

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That being said I have started to go back to how I lost weight before. If you know from previous blogs I have lost weight before, mind you this was a long time ago and also before I was ever pregnant but I still lost weight. I have created a new calorie counting book. I am hoping to really deck it out at night to avoid munching and snacking at night. I want this to be more of a journal than a diary or log book. I also may not even be writing the calories of things but just documenting with what I eat in the run of a day. I also am debating if I want to do some sort of fasting like maybe 12pm noon until 7pm max however I am still undecided. I also am going to be doing different things and workout videos and things again too.

I feel like this could be a huge opportunity for me to be with other people who want to also lose weight. One thing I want to do as this journey goes and hopefully the weight also goes is by going through my clothes. That is something that I need to face reality. I do not need the amount of clothes that I have. Number one, some of them may never fit me anymore due to having 2 kids and my body changing. I need to come to that realization and just start weeding out clothes. I barely flip through clothes not let alone the ones that I used to wear to the bars. I need to start de-cluttering my life and clothes is huge. I know there are some underwear that will never fit me again based on my hips being incredibly different now.

One of my favorite items to use to workout and get the heart pumping is a skipping rope. Pair this with hand weights for a mini workout when you are a bit crunched for time!

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Starting this Monday I will take some before photos and re-post measurements. If you have been someone following this journey you will know that the weight I Have and measurements are probably not that much different than when I first started writing this in January. However I am excited to see where it takes me. I may even write some sort of a guide for the Thursday blogs so that I can talk about the same things every week and make things that much easier. Here is to 12 weeks and getting some what of a summer body back before my spouse has parental and we explore the province with our sons!

One shake that I found to actually fill me up is slim fast shakes, they are a great meal replacement with a sweet kick added too. When I am needed an added bonus for energy I tend to reach for these Nuun energy tablets.

I skipped a week – Self Care Thursday – March 31st, 2022

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240.2lbs.

This may be one of the first ever really pre-written self care updates only due to the fact I missed a week. Crazy right?! I’m not even really beating myself up about it (seriously).

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Last week was the first time I was home for overnights with my sons alone and let me tell you how hard it was. Naturally it was challenging because I had my youngest seemingly in his 4 month sleep regression. That was interesting. And my oldest for whatever reason struggled with sleep. And we ran out of coffee so that was hard in itself too! This week I am also alone however instead of my spouse coming back on the Friday he will be back on the Thursday. Which one day big deal but it actually makes a huge deal!

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I also have started Some thing which is why I put my weight at the top of this page. I put my scale away under my sink. I have become way to obsessed with the number that I am really going to try for the month of April to not look at how much I weight. With new weather coming I will be trying to do some more walking with my son’s and I will be really trying to focus on not over eating or eating late at night. I was and still have been weighing myself when I wake up, before I go to bed, and sometimes even in the middle of the day. This is not healthy behaviour. Something needed to stop and this was it. I feel like this could help me a lot to not beating myself up if I have a bad day. So often I will over eat one day and think I am a failure when it is literally one day.

One of my favorite items to use to workout and get the heart pumping is a skipping rope. Pair this with hand weights for a mini workout when you are a bit crunched for time!

I am also going to make a small chart to keep track of things. Nothing major but just a little snap shot of what I would like to do, like didnt over eat, smoked weed, exercised, no food after 7pm, simple. Im also not really counting calories because again, I become obsessed with that and I know that is not healthy for me. I know when I over eat. I don’t need to also obsess with the amount of calories when I know what I am eating.

Keeping busy can be a challenge but I have really taken off in terms of my writing poems has been going. I have finished one collection that I am currently typing up so I can send it to a few people for their opinions. While writing a few poems here and there. I am so excited and so nervous about this because it is something that is totally new for me. Not to mention I am slowly writing poem titles and ideas for for the next set of poetry collections after Im done these. Crazy to be thinking that far ahead but I just dont want to lose the ideas!

One shake that I found to actually fill me up is slim fast shakes, they are a great meal replacement with a sweet kick added too. When I am needed an added bonus for energy I tend to reach for these Nuun energy tablets.

Overall I am feeling pretty good. Id like to do more exercises and seeing the number lower on the scale even if I still am self sabotaging myself. Seeing the number the lowest it has been is huge for me. It makes me realize that if I keep at it I can lose the weight. It just will take some hard work and dedication.

Here is to a new month with new goals.
Weight loss goal: Under 230lbs.

When Will I Learn – Self Care Thursday – March 17th 2022

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I swear Ill never learn.  This weekend started with such high hopes and it became diminished by weed and poor judgement.

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I was seeing the lowest numbers on the scale and one weekend was all it took to totally go backwards. I think I will be okay this weekend and by the time this releases I may be back under 240 pounds again. Though the lowest I seen in recent days has been 237lbs which I totally thought let’s eat everything possible because I did a good job. As much as I want to say that the numbers are not a huge motivator they are. I also need to stop rewarding myself with food. For some dumb reason I think I can food should be the motivator when I need to do other things.

One of the hardest parts of this is creating new habits and trying to say goodbye to the old ones. I ate far too much on the weekend which rolled over to Monday. You would think with the sore stomach, and a backup system I have I would learn. For those few days that I over ate I am now paying for it after I get back on track. That is wildly insane to me.  And what is worse is that I obviously still haven’t learned yet to cut that out. Maybe this week will be better and I wont totally screw myself over.

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Working out has been decent. I have slacked in the past week in terms of actually doing it due to the fact I’m pretty I hurt my hip from bring my youngest to bed for an hour which I never want to do ever but some mornings it just is far too early! And then my shoulder was extremely wonky after and that was weird. I have been doing these walk at home videos with Leslie Sansone. They have been going well. I love how easy going they are and accessible too since I watch them on YouTube. Sometimes it is challenging due to the fact one or both kids may be fussy and not napping but I am really pleased overall with how I have been doing those videos pretty regularly.

One of my favorite items to use to workout and get the heart pumping is a skipping rope. Pair this with hand weights for a mini workout when you are a bit crunched for time!

Now fast forward to the last 2 weeks in March. I am kind of looking forward to it but also not. My spouse is away next week from Monday to Friday and the following week from Monday to Thursday. Typically if he is gone like that I barely if at all smoke weed. Which I indent to keep up! It could really effect my binging on food if I’m not smoking weed. I intent to use that time to really hammer down on habits and even blog writing. As well as poetry. I am nearly 2/3rd of the way finished my 3 books.  Once I am done it will be time to organize my poems and prep them for typing as well as edit them roughly on paper. I am so dedicated to making this work it is a little bit insane! But I am so looking forward to it though. I want to really again get a jump on blogs due to the fact my partner is going on parental also for May ,June and July. For those 3 months I will be streaming a bit more often than I normally would. Keeping the same Mon and Fri days but also introducing a Tuesday and Thursday day time stream in the afternoon just for something to do also.

One shake that I found to actually fill me up is slim fast shakes, they are a great meal replacement with a sweet kick added too. When I am needed an added bonus for energy I tend to reach for these Nuun energy tablets.

Overall I think I can be close to my 230lb weight loss goal. We are just over half way through the month and the numbers that I have seen on the scale are re-assuring for sure. I just need to stop feeding my victories with treats and instead maybe reflect and drink some water!!

I feel alright! – Self Care Thursday – March 10th/2022

I am actually trying to get ahead if the weekly check in this week. Who am I?

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I would say this week has been okay. I have snacked a bit but that is alright. As I have mentioned before I am not trying ti limit my snacking. Unless I am high if course! I am nearly trying to watch portions as well as the times that I snack. I still find myself snacking at night which is something I need to work on though. I need to really focus on doing something productive at night. Maybe write some more poems or maybe write in some blogs. Even crafting would be better however I am waiting on my ceiling lamp though in order to get that going. Crafting in the dark has not been great and I don’t want to get myself a headache basically. I already wear glasses and trying to get sewing happening will be a lot!

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Working out has been going okay. I have been absolutely loving these Walk it off workout DvDs that I watch on YouTube.  They are with Leslie Sansone. They are super easy. Require no weights. And I can do them right in my house. Obviously as weather does warm up I will be doing actual walks outside however right now I am loving these. And they are easy to follow along which makes it also nice. I will probably continue to do these til I am either bored of them or find myself in a plateau. I really enjoy the moves not being incredibly hard. Right now I find myself struggling on weekends which I need to just do it. I get lazy and slack but I need to stop making excuses. I have been trying to do a solid 45 minutes which some days has it’s challenges when both kids are supposed to be napping and my youngest is above that apparently.

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Weed has been alright also. As much as I love my midday roach I have only been having a puff in the daytime on weekends and that has been helping tremendously. A big problem with me smoking in the day is that I munch in the afternoon AND in the night. That needed to stop. That ended up me munching the entire day and well, I just cant do that. Smoking at night only would be perfect if I can just stop the munching all together.

Weight has been slowly coming off also. I have seen under 240lbs more in the last week than I have in a few years. I hate that I focus so much on a number but I really cant help it. It is one of the only ways that I can physically see how I am doing on the scale. Seeing the number go down is such a great feeling however I need to constantly remind myself to stop letting myself feel comfortable when it happens. A big issue for me and the scale is as soon as I see it go down I feel like I need to reward myself with food and that is so beyond true that the reminders even then are tricky to remember. I do not need a treat or snack because the number is going down. I need to remember that I am doing a great job and food should not be a reinforcement of that.

Mentally I feel pretty good. I have been really focusing on planning things for my poetry collections. Trying to do graphics and things that will help promote myself as a poet and the free ebook also to grow my subscriber lists. Right now I have 17 people which is pretty huge. I need to keep going and promoting that also too. I would like to email my old contacts from an MLM company that I used to work for. That would be huge in itself if I was to do that. And if people subscribe they subscribe if they don’t no worries! Focusing my energy on different things instead has been helping. I have a new project for my mantel also too. Will it turn out? Who knows! Now for the real test. I got grocery’s yesterday and I need to figure out how not to eat all the junk at once !

March is Mine – Self Care Thursday # – March 3rd 2022

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I am so hopeful for March. I am kicking it’s butt.

Some goals that I have set up for March would be that I want to be under 230lbs. I know it seems like a lot especially since I so epic-ly failed at Feb goal but I feel different this month. I am really going to hammer down and work my hardest to achieve these goals. I need to do this for so many reasons that I need to stop making excuses.

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Working out is one thing I need to also hammer down on. I do a few good days and then I am hoping to workout all but 7 days. That is the amount Id like to miss maximum. Now if I miss less days even better! I have been doing some walking workouts that I have seen on YouTube so that has been great also too. I have really enjoyed that. They are simple and super accessible. I have been doing about 45 minutes a day thus far. I don’t want to overwhelm myself so I am just sticking to these once a day at 45 minutes. Once I get too used to them I will change them up. Yesterday my youngest was awake and I brought him out in his chair and still finished. Normally I would make an excuse to not finish if he was awake and that needs to stop. I need to stop making excuses. It was a bit of a broken workout but still counts.

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As for my mental health. I would say it has been okay. Ive been trying to not smoke weed in the day time ad that is a major self sabotage of myself. I smoke in the middle of the day, then I slack off the rest of the day and so I’m over eating from lunch til evening and that is not okay. I have been feeling incredible with doing my workouts and not smoking in the day time too. I find myself way more productive. Maybe a weekend day Ill have a puff but through the week I had to stop. And I feel so much better by doing so.

One of my favorite items to use to workout and get the heart pumping is a skipping rope. Pair this with hand weights for a mini workout when you are a bit crunched for time!

I also have been trying to focus in my eBook as well. I made one to help grow an email subscriber list for when I launch my poetry books. That has been going great. I want to really hammer down and make a plan on different social media’s and try and make this successful. I have received positive feedback for my poetry that I have released as part of the sampler. I cannot wait to see what I have in store.

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Overall Id say this week I am feeling a lot more relaxed and dedicated and motivated to how I want to improve my life. I need to do this for so many other reasons but I also need to do this for myself. I need to really make sure that I am dedicated for the right reasons. Sure it is easy to say I want to feel sexy or pretty but I also want to be healthy and energetic for my son’s. That is a major driving force as well too.

One shake that I found to actually fill me up is slim fast shakes, they are a great meal replacement with a sweet kick added too. When I am needed an added bonus for energy I tend to reach for these Nuun energy tablets.

Renewed Motivation – Self Care Thursday 7 – February 17th

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Thurs, Feb 10th
241.8
Pasta…ice cream.. Small bowl chips.. Ice coffee.. Water..
Smoked yes. Accomplished a lot. Finished a few blogs that were half completed. As of today I have about 19 completed. I also have not scheduled the blogs for March which I will need to do in the near future. I would love to have between 35 and 50 blogs written so I can just schedule and schedule. It would leave me with more time on the fly to write about issues that pop up and I can write about on the fly. As for writing, I am up to about 60 poems written. Which is huge. My goal is about 100 at least for each poetry book as part of the collection. So I am nearly done one book which is amazing to me! I feel like my munching is okay but I want to keep doing what I did when the power was out and that is not smoking every day. Taking breaks and days off. It will for sure help my tolerance that’s for sure.

Fri, Feb 11th
Today was pretty relaxed. I did over indulge food wise a little bit but I will not be letting it drag into Saturday. I also am not going to dwell on it either. It was a pretty decent day. Streamed for a bit which was the 1st time in a very long time due to having no heat or power and then frozen pipes after that. I am really going to try to not munch the next few days with maybe not smoking on Sunday and Monday because my spouse has to work Monday and Sunday can be a reset day also too. I have been doing so well with house work and dishes to keep up on it has been nice. I need to keep that momentum up because my goal is to completely finish Felix’s bedroom. He will for sure need to be moved into his crib soon as I fear he is getting too big for his bassinet and he may be waking himself up as he hits the sides with his arms.

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Sat, Feb 12th
Today was decent. I felt okay anyways. I ran a few errands I think for the 1st time in a while I even drove my car too. As far as our weekly date night we were so tired that we fell asleep on the couch. What are the chances.  What is even more nutty is that we didn’t even watch anything on TV LOL. We were that tired. No joke.

Sun, Feb 13th.
Again ran an errand or two. I wanted to get the last things to add to a parcel foe a friend of mine in England. I wanted everything ready so I can mail it to her soon. Since there is chocolate I don’t want to wait for the summer that would be silly. I also think I am going to take some time off of smoking through the week. I completed 68 poems and my goal for Feb is to have at least 100. However I am debating on pushing myself to get between 125 and 150 poems done. I really want to start editing and typing them up. I had got on kindle app on my tablet also a few how to market books, books. I want to be brain storming a plan to be able to have success.

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Monday, Feb 14th
242.8
So today was alright. I did munch a bit but only smoked a roach though. By the time everyone was settled and in bed it was nearly 9pm or 930pm and obviously my partner and I went to bed. I swear we have been playing catch up ever since we had no power!

Tues,Feb 15th
242.2?
Today I did some munching in the day time but at night we were okay. Especially because Felix seems to have a 9pm bedtime and that is when we finally smoked. My partner also having a few puffs too. We will soon be putting Felix in his own crib in the next few days once we have the baseboards done. We do not want to wait much longer as he already is too big for his bassinette. This may also help him sleep better.

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Wed, Feb 16th/22
242.8
The month is winding down. I an going to be doing a mini meal plan til the end of the month so I better keep track of what I am eating or snacks I am looking forward to also.I really need to motivate myself to use my whole agenda or else half of the pages are legit being wasted right now! I need to organize it tonight when I do a little bonus stream and get things going in terms of keeping better track of what I eat. I put out a question to a mom group that I was in if others are looking for motivation and started a group chat with about 20 of us. I feel like this is what I needed people to help lift others up and what not. That is my goal anyways, while also keeping myself motivated which I need for sure. I also did a 45 minute workout DvD too. I tried to start when my oldest was by me and my youngest as asleep but that turned into a “Chase Mommy around” so I waited till nap time and did it then!

Exercise is something that I really need to start doing. I have absolutely no excuse to not do it. Even if my oldest is in bed and my youngest is awake he is fully capable to sit in his chair if I workout. I need to stop making every excuse under the sun why I don’t workout. A YouTube video can be even 30 minutes to an hour if I want and that is still a great way for me to be active and burn calories and feeling great about myself in the process.

Overall the past week has been decent. I mainly feel like my partner and I were in bed super early like the two of us were catching up on sleep from the ice storm we had too. I think I will be able to do my mini week goals also which was to have march schedule blog wise (Except for these obviously since I write them every week!) and then to have some also written as well. My poetry writing is also going great, I am at about 76 and would like to have 85 written before Sunday (though I plan on writing more than that!). I feel like I could be really close to my 235lb weight goal before the end of the month, even if there is just under 2 weeks left and a lot of weight to lose to get to it! I am hopeful!

A New Approach – Self Care Thursday 6 – February 10th

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I’m trying a different approach this week. I have been writing and reflecting a little by little as if I am writing in a journal or in a diary. Hopefully it helps to be more aware in the moment then just an overview at the end of the week.

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Thurs, Feb 3rd 2022
330am.. And Im feeling like a sad sack of garbage. I really ate 2 cans of Pillsbury croissant dough. One made into cheese croissants and another made with cinnamon and sugar like cinnamon buns. And now I am downing water after just feeding my son. Today there will be no weed smoking. I can do this. 10lbs to lose by the end of the month is totally achievable.

Iced coffee.. Kraft dinner 3/4 box.. Bowl chips.. Hershey’s eggs..

Friday, Feb 4th 2022
245.0lb
Soooo we lost power. There was a big ice storm thing and so there was no power. Good news is no motivation to munch especially if something was in the fridge due to the fact that we needed to conserve the cold in there. We went to my parents for supper since it was warm. Overall Id say not a horrible munching day but only due to the fact we were not home as much and also due to the fact that no power to see them!
Kraft dinner, iced coffee, chips, garlic fingers.

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Saturday, Feb 5th 2022
So last night was FREEZING. We wake up and the whole house is chilly. At about 7 or just after we bring the boys back to my parents house the temperature for the weekend is actually freezing. We end up staying there because our power is still not back. This is after 24h. It just is far far too cold to be able to spend the night in the house.

Sun, Feb 6th 2022
I love my parents dont get me wrong but I am itching to go back to my own home. I would like my own bed and my boys to have their own beds also. We FINALLY get power back nearly 48h after the outage. My spouse goes to the house to double check things. The power is on nut the heat does not work. We dont realize this til we are back with our boys. We call a furnace repair guy in case that is the issue and it wasn’t. After being only 4c I bitterly decide we need to fo back to my parents as it is far too cold for the boys.

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Mon, Feb 7th 2022
Im feeling like a bag of dirt. I had a shower last night at my parents but toally feel defeated. I just would like my own bed back honestly. As far as weight loss goes though I am feeling pretty good considering I havenr smoked weed since Friday and even then it was just a roach too. Which means no real munching.

Tues, Feb 8th 2022
241.8lbs
So we slept in the house tonight! There was no heat and we had a pipe leak/burst in the basement for a rad we had 0 idea where it was at. Honestly I swear there are some things that happen with the house that we really have no idea about and it always surprises us. At this point we shouldn’t be surprised at anything honestly. We should just let things happen. We have a plumber coming do the repairs and then heat will finally be back. Mentally sleeping in my own bed last night majorly helped that is for sure. From sleeping on the couch for 2 days it was exhausting even if I didn’t sleep incredibly bad it still sucked. Also thankful for the weather being positive degrees all week so that is a major help also too.

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Wed, Feb 9th, 2022
241.8lbs
So I for sure snacked out a bit and honestly I am totally okay with that. Aftwr the week and weekend past I feel like it was not totally obsessive however for sure needed. The past few days have been insane in terms of low key stress and adjusting that I am very happy all of our power is back and it was not major signifigant damage that had happened. I also feel like after today really taking genuine days off of smoking weed to help curb munchies till I have it completely under control. I also had a bath for the first time in a very long time. As much ad I love hot steamy showers I often forget how nice a bath really feels and how it effects my mood. I need to take this bit of self care more often.

One of my favorite items to use to workout and get the heart pumping is a skipping rope. Pair this with hand weights for a mini workout when you are a bit crunched for time!

Overall I think despite the circumstances of the storm and losing power that I did pretty good. Staying at my parents is never easy because as appreciative as we are it just isn’t our home. We had to adjust and sleep in different situations. Needless to say my sons were very thankful to be back home and in their own beds after this was all said and done.

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I am also so looking forward to warm weather to be able to go on walks daily with my boys also. It will be a lot of fun to be able to explore and get some exercise in as well. This was something that we did a lot when we were living in Quebec and I would really like to do the same once we are able to here.

As you can see too. Some days I did keep track of my food intake sometimes I did not. I am really liking this style to be able to give a snap shot of each day. I hope it is easy for you to read also. I find doing it this way makes me really aware of what or how I did that day because I have to reflect in the moment instead of once a week in case I forget something or miss an important event.

One shake that I found to actually fill me up is slim fast shakes, they are a great meal replacement with a sweet kick added too. When I am needed an added bonus for energy I tend to reach for these Nuun energy tablets.

And it doesnt not help that I am also lowest on the scale since starting so far!!
Start weight: 248.8lb (down 7lb since Jan 4th)
Current Weight: 241.8lb

Back to Basics – Self Care Thursday 5 – February 3rd

I feel like every single week I write this will be the week I am held accountable for. Its not. I stand by my goal to lose 10lbs or be under 235lbs by the end of the month.

I was going to attempt a dry Feb or mostly dry but that just is not going to happen. I will try to cut back but honestly I just don’t know if I can do a dry one. I just need to control my munching.

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That being said I am really going to push myself to get a major start on writing in different places. Poetry is my next venture. I have an idea for a few books. I also have schedule different poems to be done on so many days. Certain days have a 5 poem day where I write 5 in that day. However if I do more over more days that is also great too. At the end of the month I should have at least 50 written however with the added scheduled (roughly!) I should have 80. Ideally I would love to see myself be pushed to have over 150 poems done. That would be huge in my quest to write and have some books done. Since it is poetry after I have written all of mind I will be  buying a fee poetry books to see the flow. Mentally I feel like this is a great and achievable goal because stories can take a bit more time and physically sitting down and writing. These I can do sitting on the couch in between moments of chaos with my sons.

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Starting today I am also writing down all of my calories/food per day. I need to. What bothers me the most is that I have lost weight before. Many moons ago but still none the less. I need to focus on that. I also want to do my own exercises and stuff. Maybe a workout DVD maybe just ones I think of. Regardless I also need to keep track of that. I feel like I need to also stop making excuses but that is obviously a me problem. I get so discouraged when I slip up that it hurts my progress in the long run and I know that all too well.

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I have also decided to start to write these out in more real time like a journal or diary entry. That way I am able to really demonstrate in real time for you guys how things are doing and my feelings a bit more detailed. Sometimes looking back on the week if I had a good day or two before I write this can be really cloudy for you, the reader, about how my weight loss and mental health journey have been going. I want you to see and feel that you are not alone if you too are struggling with something like this in any aspect of your life too.

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I would say this past week has been nice I feel like a lot if us felt like January was a very long month. And while it was and some exciting moments I still need to focus in this. I can do it. I need to stop slacking and focus on what is important. I also am excited for nicer weather so we can go on Family walks too. I may even be planning walks with my boys. Since we have the double stroller. Maybe go on adventures and find different walking trails and things that are around to go to. I feel like maybe the cold weather is a bit low key depressing but there is nothing I can do about that. I love snow and I love winter but sometimes the cold is a bit too much!

Weight: 247.6 (Lost 1.2lb)
Start weight: 248.8lb (Jan 4th)
Measurements: (will re-do after 15lb lost)

Drastic Times – Self Care Thursday 4 – January 27th

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I still am totally failing at this whole weight loss journey and I have no one to blame but myself here! And that is okay. I can do this even if the beginning looks tough. Here is my week that I am very thankful to be behind me.

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First, No more smoking weed unless it is on Saturday or Sunday. That is all. Obviously I cannot control myself and when I smoke and it spills into the week it causes so much damage. Not just because of my lungs (Which I am indifferent about I know.. ) but because I over eat. When I over eat junk and garbage I end up now losing sleep. Why you ask, because I have heartburn and a weird stomach and what not from disgusting that garbage. You my be thinking it cant be that bad. You are wrong! I can eat chips bowl after bowl, i can eat chocolate bar after bar, ice cream, soda, and whatever else I see in the house. I need to develop healthy habits again and plan out things. I also need to set a rule for myself that I not have any food after 7pm. I am such a night muncher that I am hoping that by focusing on my new endeavor for books that I feel like that will be a help for me to avoid over smoking as well as over eating.

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I have also decided to STOP counting calories. I am 32 years old and have counted calories for the past 12 years. I have always thought it helped me in terms of trying to lose weight. I could see how much I over eat by etc. That ends now. I will be loosely and I say that with confidence, keeping track of what I eat in terms of food. I know the calories in what I am eating and by counting them daily when I know I am way over is doing absolutely nothing to my mental health. If I over eat I know that I over eat. Instead I will be weighing myself daily first thing in the morning. I know this can also become an obsessive category BUT I do need some sort of reminder that I am on the right track. This is the new reminder.

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Overall I would say that I am feeling hopeful about this. I know you probably are tired of reading it every single week because I am always writing this however I feel good about it. Workouts are kind of on the back burner right now. But I am looking very forward to warmer weather so I can take my boys on daily walks around the neighborhood though., I will make this a goal for myself daily and if my boyfriend wants to go we can also do that like we used to in our previous home too.

One of my favorite items to use to workout and get the heart pumping is a skipping rope. Pair this with hand weights for a mini workout when you are a bit crunched for time!

One of my biggest problems is that I am always pushing too much to fast on myself. Losing weight is something I have struggled with my entire life. It will not change drastically over night nor will it be healthy. I have lost weight before though and went right back to gaining some because I totally forgot I need to monitor portions and I need to work out and I need to not reset to old habits.

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Not that I want to put blame but maybe this whole Covid stuff also has been getting to me also. Living in basically the hot spot in Canada for a long time and having so little interactions, to now living at home and still with a rise in cases having trouble too. It really is hard for me to not put blame and I need to channel the sadness I sometimes feel and turn it into something that is productive, like losing weight!

One shake that I found to actually fill me up is slim fast shakes, they are a great meal replacement with a sweet kick added too. When I am needed an added bonus for energy I tend to reach for these Nuun energy tablets.


Here is hoping to reaching my 10lb goal of losing weight for February! I can do this.